I'm trying to pick up the new feeling of a reassured self. I still tremble at unforeseen tasks at work because I don't like to be overstimulated. I did tons of shadow work for my life, and especially my life at the workplace and love life. I am becoming someone regaining trust from myself in the way—when I talk to my mom, I felt much more certain about what I want to convey and understanding the presence of us talking.
I finished watching *The Bear* Season 4, when the Bear family finally got over the shadow of a broken family, which led to the unfortunate suicide of Michael. People settled down their anger and finally were honest and vulnerable, to face the trauma and the aftermath of trauma. Somehow, I felt like homecoming, like a closure for my own shadow work. Though, like what happened in the show, the restaurant still needs to stabilize itself—so am I.
At the end of the last episode, when the song *Fast Slow Disco* by St. Vincent started, it felt like homecoming. And I'm about to wrap up my report from a Sunday night overtime.